I grow plants to eat, I have pets to care for, hobbies to interest me and online friends to exchange ideas with but that is what I do, not who I am. Who I am is a bit different. It does involve what I do but it also involves how I am and my behaviour and opinions and having an "inside" look at myself there's nothing that stands out to indicate to me that I'm living my life and making my life what I want it to be. I also feel like I have no purpose in life and am just existing as there's no person that needs my time or my care anymore and I feel a bit like I'm being blown about never arriving anywhere or acheiving anthing. I don't want to just "be" or "be something" to someone else - like a job description....I want to be me but I'm not sure who that is.
So for the first time I'm going to try a word for a year and that word is
Discover
I think today is an appropriate day to begin my personal journey to discover myself .
Afterthought: This has been my "theme" song for about 12 months now and still is. We can all try to be a little better than we actually are and it shouldn't take something momentous for this to happen.
Afterthought: This has been my "theme" song for about 12 months now and still is. We can all try to be a little better than we actually are and it shouldn't take something momentous for this to happen.
"Live Like You Were Dyin"
Copyright: Bug Music, Big Loud Shirt, Warner-tamerlane Publishing Corp.
He said I was in my early 40's,
With a lot of life before me,
And a moment came that stopped me on a dime.
I spent most of the next days, lookin' at the x-rays,
Talkin' 'bout the options and talkin' 'bout sweet time.
Asked him when it sank in, that this might really be the real end.
How's it hit ya, when you get that kind of news.
Man what ya do.
And he says,
[Chorus]
I went sky divin',
I went rocky mountain climbin',
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull name Fumanchu.
And I loved deeper,
And I spoke sweeter,
And I gave forgiveness I've been denying,
And he said someday I hope you get the chance,
To live like you were dyin'.
He said I was finally the husband,
That most the time I wasn't.
And I became a friend a friend would like to have.
And all the sudden goin' fishing,
Wasn't such an imposition.
And I went three times that year I lost my dad.
Well I finally read the good book,
And I took a good long hard look at what I'd do
If I could do it all again.
And then.
[Chorus]
Like tomorrow was a gift and you've got eternity
To think about what you do with it,
What could you do with it, what can
I do with with it, what would I do with it.
[Chorus]
Sky divin',
I went rocky mountain climbin',
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull name Fumanchu.
And I loved deeper,
And I spoke sweeter,
And I watched an eagle as it was flyin'.
And he said someday I hope you get the chance,
To live like you were dyin'.
To live like you were dyin'.
To live like you were dyin'.
To live like you were dyin'.
To live like you were dyin'.
With a lot of life before me,
And a moment came that stopped me on a dime.
I spent most of the next days, lookin' at the x-rays,
Talkin' 'bout the options and talkin' 'bout sweet time.
Asked him when it sank in, that this might really be the real end.
How's it hit ya, when you get that kind of news.
Man what ya do.
And he says,
[Chorus]
I went sky divin',
I went rocky mountain climbin',
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull name Fumanchu.
And I loved deeper,
And I spoke sweeter,
And I gave forgiveness I've been denying,
And he said someday I hope you get the chance,
To live like you were dyin'.
He said I was finally the husband,
That most the time I wasn't.
And I became a friend a friend would like to have.
And all the sudden goin' fishing,
Wasn't such an imposition.
And I went three times that year I lost my dad.
Well I finally read the good book,
And I took a good long hard look at what I'd do
If I could do it all again.
And then.
[Chorus]
Like tomorrow was a gift and you've got eternity
To think about what you do with it,
What could you do with it, what can
I do with with it, what would I do with it.
[Chorus]
Sky divin',
I went rocky mountain climbin',
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull name Fumanchu.
And I loved deeper,
And I spoke sweeter,
And I watched an eagle as it was flyin'.
And he said someday I hope you get the chance,
To live like you were dyin'.
To live like you were dyin'.
To live like you were dyin'.
To live like you were dyin'.
To live like you were dyin'.
Performed by Tim McGraw
Writer(s): Tim Nichols, Craig WisemanCopyright: Bug Music, Big Loud Shirt, Warner-tamerlane Publishing Corp.
Cheers,
Robyn XO
It sounds like a wonderful word to have. :) Best of luck on your journey.
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Hi Robyn! Now that my children have grown and moved out on their own, I'm afraid I am in a bit of limbo and will be until my first granddaughter starts noticing I exist..ha.. There are always going to be times in life when we "rest" and don't have a well-defined direction of who we are. I think these are times to "stop and smell the roses" as they say. I think of the older people I've known in the past, such as my grandparents, and how they were seemingly happy to just sit and talk!
ReplyDeleteThank you :).
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